Sunday, July 08, 2007

Cheer me up?

I'm back from vac. I was only gone a week. But, it didn't seem like a week, not for a minute, it seemed longer. I enjoyed every minute of it, had tons of fun, good laughs, good food, just simply a very amazing time.

Vacation? what is it? my definition is a time when I get to digress if for a moment from the-my normal routine(which is insanely overwhelming). It's the time I take off of the routine and slow down, catch a breath, look around, take in the beauty of rest and change or not. Time to re-energise and recuperate, time to reflect, time to catch up on some things that normally wouldn't make the day's agenda ( I'm a bit big on first things first). A time to reminiscence on what has been and of course a time to re-focus and make a few necessary changes. And all these I did.

But now am back in town, as I type this am not a happy camper, I'm in a crisis of a bittersweet mood. I miss my family so much, I miss the BF. Vacation was suppossed to make me happy no? and yes am happy and very graetful I got that time off and got away from all the madness in my life. However, whenever I take vacation I regress, no, not in a bad way. But, I always come back and first 2 weeks, I'm trying to fit in the routine all over again, like trying to rebuild myself, and not cry myself to sleep. I build a wall and shut others out as I give myself time to come back.

I'll come back slowly but surely. When I wake up tomorrow morning it'll be more like hitting the ground running because of all the things I have to do and stay on top of. I'll be back sooner than I know it, it'll linger at the back of my mind but soon will vamoose.

Think me happy thoughts, would you? Leave me comments and cheer me up :) Indulge me in how you feel after your vacation(s) or how you'd feel after your vacation(s)?

Mood-Bittersweet, torn between happy, aloneness, lowliness, and sadness

16 comments:

KymmBr said...

Mmmhhhh.... vacationing already? and mpaka yu are done wit it? guess i hav been slow for a minute thurr. hope yu had a ball.
As for getting back into rhythm...ya know our slogan right? stick it up and do what ya gotta do. All the best. am still a happy camper in my part of the world.

Princess said...

It is always difficult returning from vacation, especially when you have been surrounded by family!!!

Anonymous said...

Hmmm...vacation...no clue what that is...work....work and more work...public holidays espescially the extended ones are most welcome though...the readjusting back to work mode is difficult as there is always more than was there before you left so at times it just feels like a major pain to be on holiday...but that is just me. :-)

Three types of Crazy said...

WELCOME BACK. Great holidays are great (yes, I meant to write that)but it means they are harder to get over. I think maybe one needs to plan a holiday to get over the last holiday. I always get back one day before I have to be back at work- allowing myself those 24 hours to cry and sleep and be angry with the world for placing me so far away from those I love. Yes, it lasts about two weeks but I guess if you didn't miss them so much, it would mean you didn't care so much.

Welcome back. Keep yourself busy and avoid the "if I was on holiday I would be doing such and such" it makes things worse.

Prettylyf said...

@Kymmbr-Yup, we need to talk sometime soon, like catch up lol I had sooooooo much fun and today am right wit u in happy camp :)

@Princess-Tell me about it...

@Aegeus-I agree wit you and thanks for stopping by :)

@three types of crazy-Maa am right there wit you, I won't even add a single word, you said it right from my heart

gishungwa said...

i always feel like i need a vacation to recover from the vacation partly because i tend to have too much fun. Great to have you back. Enjoy the happy days.

irena said...

I'm on vacay my dear and I know what you feel .I dread coming back to work. The trick is when back to the normal routine, think of the next vacay and that should motivate you to see those days go by ...Okay back to my vacay mood..later gal!

Prettylyf said...

@Gish- I agree wit you, we'd keeping taking vacays to get over previous vacay then we'd get jerk done no? oh well I'm doing good now,I've come back if I do say so

@Irena-how dare you sis? go on vacay just after me maa you, we shall talk about this. Have fun sana lakini, for me and you and I'll help you get over it when you're back lol

~ScotchBiscuits~ said...

I feel like a zombie after vacation. not because I didn't rest enough. but because my body is never willing to quit the holiday. so I've got to drag my self around for the first couple of weeks. I don't know if it'll make you feel better, but when the work pile goes up you'll get so busy you'll forget to feel bad. hang in there.

Prettylyf said...

@Scotchbiscuits-I feel the same. The feeling kills me b/c it feels like I'm starting all over from square one and I just can't or I don't want to

gishungwa said...

I keep feeling like i know you but when i came back this struck home "stick it up and do what ya gotta do". I needed that.

jm said...

Ati va -what?

hiyo ni lugha mpya kwangu ...

Prettylyf said...

@Gish-Of course you know me, Gish :) can't believe it took you this long hehe, nice having you back

@JM-that's why we learn a new thing every so often??

Klara said...

I feel u!

Prettylyf said...

@Klara-I see alot of us share in this :)

B n P said...

Oh my..i left you on vacation and expected it be a long one since i refreshed this page sooo many times and every time you weren't back..now i refresh and ure back..and three posts later??ish!!


Anyway glad ure back..glad u had a blast!
-betty-