Tuesday, September 30, 2008

Honest Blogger Award

So, I got awarded "Honest Blogger Award" by the one and only, Kafo at D Unspoken.

And truth be told I was unaware of the existence of such an award and this caught me off guard.
I'm honest in my posts alright, which as you well know are mostly poems and a written post or bullets once every so often. But, I'm honest in a different way, whatever that means. I just don't know how to explain it. I say this because though am honest still I value my privacy and so I try to observe some level of discreetness .

I love reading the comments section. A few of you read through my trying to be discreet and nail it on the head. While some of you are way off. BUT, I greatly appreciate both because it helps me see how different all our perceptions are and teaches me to see things in a different light. Your comments have kept me going many a time and am very appreciative. Some of you have sent me e-mails and those too are greatly appreciated.

Rules are made to be broken, right? Or let me be the part relativist I am and say there's gotta be an exception to every rule and with that am awarding the "Honest Blogger Award" to;

Scotchie, because she (literally) lives in my mind
Supaflyshi , because she gets me
Pandave, because her posts are just hilariously honest

Again,thank you, Kafo, thanks for the award. I'm honored and flattered.

And the rules are...

1. When you receive the prize you must write a post showing it, together with the name of who has given it to you, and link them back
2. Choose a minimum of 5 blogs that you find brilliant in their content or design.
3. Show their names and links and leave them a comment informing they were prized with an award
4. Show a picture of those who awarded you and those you give the
prize (optional).

Saturday, September 27, 2008

Notes about Me

  • If doing the right thing is right then why does it have to be so hard
  • My mind keeps playing tricks on me. The memories are an anguish. And wait who said good memories could save you (The Punisher, the movie) because the goods ones are killing me
  • I love walking at night when the streets are quiet and dark. Only slightly lit by every other streetlight on every other block
  • I love it when my earphones are deeply sunk in my ears and the blaring volume comforts me
  • I'm tired of fighting tears uncried
  • The thoughts, they sneak up on me. Unexpected.
  • I love my independence
  • Please don't only call or write when you want/need something. Because really I'll get back to you because it's just who I am. But I do feel used and isn't that not right?
  • I miss my family so much it hurts...hurts so deep
  • I miss you, BFF, miss what we once were...the relationship we had that not a soul fathomed...I miss you
  • I'm sad it came to this..sad that I can't just pick up my phone and chat, rant and vent because I just can't. It's hard
  • You..honestly it's taken you my whole life to get your life together. What's up with that? you tear at this heart that's already torn and how can it break everyday if it's already broken?
  • I give the clouds above more than just a passing glance
  • When I come close to selling out I want to reconsider
  • Yes, Scotchie these are borrowed lyrcis from I hope you dance my Lee Ann Womack
  • My head hurts. It's been hurting all week but I did fight the Flu
  • I went to NYC last weekend and had a great time!!!
  • The child in me loved walking the streets at night and oh the pure thrill of hailing down the cabs (just like in the movies)
  • I live for the day I'll travel the world
  • I think of you, you know?
  • I wish you would leave...all my life and I still don't understand why you've stayed over half a century
  • I've cried too much am out of tears
  • It's not the darkness that comes it's the light that leaves
  • Really?
  • I miss my moms..and siblings..talking isn't enough anymore
  • How is it I wake up and think this is all a joke that I'll soon snap out of? or a bad dream
  • Then I open my sleepy eyes and every last corner is filled with a touch of me or a belonging of mine
  • Oh, I don't like it anymore here
  • Mommy ***sobs***
  • I love hot showers after a long day at work
  • All my 12 patients last night were awesome
  • I gotta have green tea
  • Honey (for my green tea) counts as a 'basic' for me
  • I could live on a cold bowl of ceral
  • I put my ceral in the fridge to make it crunchier and more crisp
  • I sleep with my stereo on

Sunday, September 14, 2008

Forgive and Forget

Today I choose to forgive you
and forget
how well will I do
how quick will I forget
I choose to forgive and forget all the wrong I did you
all the wrong you did me
I choose to forgive and forget the pain and hurt I caused you
and you caused me
I forgive and forget the words said that cannot be taken back
to and by both of us
I choose to go first as a sign of humility
far be it from me that I should think am better than you
or than anyone for that matter
I seek forgiveness from God too
I pray He make both you and me
better people
we're both still so young
still with all our lives in front of us
I pray you only the very best in all your endeavors
and should fate see to it that our paths cross again in this life
I hope we'll both go about it with some decency and dignity
Yes, I truly, sincerely forgive you with all of me
Fare thee well

Sunday, September 07, 2008


I got tagged by Mona, so here goes...

1. What’s worse - Physical or Mental cheating?

2. Is it easier to forgive or forget?

3. Can men and women be ” Just Friends?”
definitely. am all philosophical and a big believer of platonic relationships coined from the Greek philospher'a name, Plato

4. Dating co-workers?

5. All expenses paid vacation to anywhere?

6. On the way to the electric chair - What’s your last meal?
A platter of e'rything seafood

7. Water parks are…?
great when you bring an extra change of clothes..gotta love them, though

8. When you are “In Love” do you notice other people?
In love? what's that?lol. Yes, I notice other people all the time

9. Is flirting cheating?

10. Would you rather have 1 great friend or 5 pals?
1 great friend

11. If someone called you a bitch would you be offended?
Why, no!! Babe in total control here (there) tsk tsk

12. Are you ok with your significant other being friends with an ex?
By all means

13. Would you live with someone without marrying them?
once bitten, twice shy

14. Favorite sport?
Frisbee at the beach

15. Is toilet paper hung over or under?

16. Do you squeeze toothpaste from the middle or end of the tube?

17. How do you feel about tanning booths?
The same way, Pink does in her song

18. Friends with benefits?
No, thanks

19. Do you believe in angels?

20. Would you rather take pictures or be in pictures?
Take them!

21. Have you ever flirted with someone you had no interest in?

22. Ever kissed a random person and then walked away?
Gracious, no

23. Would you buy bootleg merchandise?

24. What color looks best on you?

25. If you could play any sport professionally what would it be?

26. Ever break up with someone and regret it?

27. Are you a jealous person?
No, a free spirit

28. Would you ever have plastic surgery?

29. When do you want to get married?
That's not in the plans anywhere yet

30. Who has the sexiest accents?
My goodness...I'd have to kill you, if I told you

31. Next concert you’re attending?

32. Favorite song?
I don't have one in particular but I like a couple

33. Favorite movie?-
I'm at pains to pick just one

34. What’s your occupation?

35. What’s your sign?

36. Are you a beach, country or city person
A cross between beach and city

37. Best vacation spot you’ve been to?
Tsavo West

38. Have you ever had a “secret affair?”

39. If you could own a non-traditional pet which would it be?

40. Favorite show as a child?
Tom & Jerry

41. Where do you spend most of your money?
Shoes-Steve Madden

42. Are you currently working at a job that you hate?
No, not really

43. Have you ever been so heart broken that you called in sick to work?
Are you kidding me? of course, not!

44. Favorite summer drink?
Cocktails + water

45. Can you change a car tire?
Yes. I'm that self-sufficient.

46. Favorite cologne / perfume?

48. Would you consider yourself adventurous?

49. What is your My Space profile song?
Gee, thanks for reminding me I actually have a myspace a/c. They must have closed it down by now...no really, they have to

50. Favorite concert attended?
Have I been to a concert?

51. Would you date an already attached man / woman?

52. Would you sing Karaoke in front of co-workers?
Oh my goodness, yes! Nursing school was the best. After Wednesday night clinicals @ 11pm we'd all walk in to this Karaoke bar by the hospital fully clad in our smurf blue uni scrubs, not giving a rat's ass and just sing our tired tushes away...and the next day at 630am we'd show up at clinicals all red-eyed and tired as hell. Gotta love nursing school, dude!!!

53. Can you shoot pool?
Wait, can I shoot pool? I've to be the biggest amateur there is the art of shooting pool

54. Do you like your siblings’ significant others?
I don't have any

55. Can you drive a stick?
I can overturn a stick wheels up and all, that much I know. Ok, so may be I can but my heart stops beating, literally. Oh ask my twin, while my heart comes to a halt, he just keels over and dies of laughter

56. Did you wear white at your wedding?
What wedding? oh that wedding...no...just a pretty little black dress

57. Have you ever sat and hoped for a phone call?
Yes...from my moms and after a job interview and oh in the recent years after my G.I appointments

58. Ever skip school and spend the day at the beach?
Wow! thanks for the idea...only thing is it's a bit too late for me to get a bunch of my nursing classmates to ditch class and hit the beach

59. Favorite TV show/s?
Army Wives and How I met your mother (HIMYM). You're missing out if you don't watch this two shows

60. What do you think about gay marriage?
I'm not for it. That is just me.

61. what are you waiting for at the movies?
The Women. I even have a reminder set on my cellie's calendar. Dude I love, love the movies

62. What is your favorite holiday?
Christmas with la familia

63. Describe your fighting style: drunken master or angry monkey?
angry monkey (whatever that means). I don't do drunken

64. Piercing?

65. Tattoos?
1. left shoulder blade

66. Which store would you choose to max out your credit card?
steve-madden, Endless.com. Shoes, shoes and then more shoes and some

67. Thongs?

68. Write 2 truths and 1 lie
-I strive to live for God everyday
-I love my moms and siblings to bits and pieces
-I love school

I'm tagging Scotchie, Pandave, Supaflyshi, Gish, Nahjaj, 3TOC and anyone else not tagged please be my guest and do the tag

Wednesday, September 03, 2008

It is well with my soil

When peace, like a river, attendeth my way,
When sorrows like sea billows roll;
Whatever my lot, Thou has taught me to say,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.

It is well, with my soul,
It is well, with my soul,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.

Though Satan should buffet, though trials should come,
Let this blessed assurance control,
That Christ has regarded my helpless estate,
And hath shed His own blood for my soul.
It is well, with my soul,
It is well, with my soul,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.
My sin, oh, the bliss of this glorious thought!
My sin, not in part but the whole,
Is nailed to the cross, and I bear it no more,
Praise the Lord, praise the Lord, O my soul!
It is well, with my soul,
It is well, with my soul,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.
And Lord, haste the day when my faith shall be sight,
The clouds be rolled back as a scroll;
The trump shall resound, and the Lord shall descend,
Even so, it is well with my soul.
It is well, with my soul,
It is well, with my soul,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.