Dreams

i will crawl under those covers
lay my head on the pillow
listen to my heart's beat slow down
hear my blood smoothly swish along
feel my thoughts drift away
pushed away and overtaken
by my dreams
and so
i'll let myself dream
let myself dream of places revisited
love found
lessons learned
tears cried and wiped
friends made
paths trod
walks taken
plans made
love lost
crossroads
i'll let myself dream
then I'll awake
arising to find my dreams
and embrace them

Memories of us

Are you lonesome today?
Do you miss me today?
Are you sorry we drifted apart?
Does your memory stray
To that cold winter's morning
When we kissed?
And became one?

homage to the woman I am

this woman is who she is
with all the confidence in the world
to prance around like she belongs
she won't be condemned by the society
or belittled by man's opinion
she will not save face to get by
this woman will not be put down
she does what she pleases
this woman is who she is
this woman is a woman who fears God
she has been called naive
she has been called ballsy
yet she will not apologize for her boldness
or for who she is
this woman is who she is
she has been known to have her way
and change everyone's mind
soaring to greater heights
this woman is who she is
a woman of her own

brokeness to beauty

i grabbed my bags
unsure where this road led
the falls, would they come?
the triumphs, would they last?
still i fastened the scarf
quickened my step
vigilantly following the light
some days it flickered
others it blinded me
some it went out altogether
leaving me fumbling around for my way
stumbling to the wrong path
then it shone so bright i had to start over
tightened my scarf, fastened my step
deep breath
dusk, lost
dawn, found
oh the joy!

Black? Morbid? Noooooooo!!!

I'll be attending a wedding on Saturday. Yes all my friends have decided to walk the talk and walk down the aisle. This been my umpteenth wedding since March, 2008.

I could pull a number from the back of the closet. Alright, I have already pulled out a number from the back of the closet. But it's black. My closet is almost entirely black. I'm not morbid it's just that I think black rocks and so am all about black.

However, this week I've been googling guest wedding dresses and black to a wedding sounds morbid? and it's all about lavender, yellow and the other light colors. And now am frightened. I absolutely do not want to be frowned upon for wearing black to someone's wedding. But am sure as hell not going out and buying a dress in a different color. I spent a half day yesterday trying the yellows and lavenders..er..umh not my cup of tea. ACK!! I don't hate weddings but the deciding what to wear is stealing the little sanity i have left and am trying so hard to hold on to.

So what am I trying to say? because some of you might suggest I get one in a different color but as stated above I won't be doing that. Secondly, some of you might say what the heck pull the black number on them, which is what I plan to do. Yeah I am not trying to say anything. I'm just blabbering.

I've been so busy lately I've not had time for me. I've not had a bath in a long, long time and I don't have my cup of green tea to enjoy it anymore but to actually stop me from going delirious. I need away. I need to stop and take a breather. I need to leave all this madness behind. I need a day in bed to catch up on sleep. But assignments and work and just life to put it mildly have all had a way to get in the way of that.

Attending all these weddings is starting to make me feel like am living 27 dresses. Not in the good way but in a nightmarish kinda way. Oh my friends are just getting married left, right and center and the only thing keeping them from getting married soon enough is that dates are already booked. Probably by other friends of mine which could mean another wedding for me to attend LOL I kid. Or may be not :) Which reminds me I need to go watch Bride Wars because I am 'living it'

This wedding is going to be my get away. I'm going to check into my room early enough and read a book and relax. I've not had a day off for a long, long time. This weekend am off four days in a row. Which is a piece of heaven. So I look forward to it and will not let the not having the 'right' dress (if there is such a thing. which I know some of you will argue there is) get in the way.

Thank you for reading my ramblings. Oye!

Crashing Waves and Giants

Sometimes, things happen in our lives that are too overwhelming. We face crashing waves and giants. And as we stand and face the realm of the unknown, the situation steals our hope, faith and trust. And we forget. Our recollection fails us. And we begin to live in the moment of doubt, mistrust and hopelessness. Slowly everything we have believed in and held onto slips away.

But just like every storm the situations we might be in are followed by a calm and quiet. And in that calm and quiet is when our sanity returns to us. I pause and take it all in and wonder what happened to me? when I stopped believing, trusting and hoping? and it all comes back to me. I never did. I was just overwhelmed by the situation to the point of succumbing to doubt and lack of faith and hope. I want to snap out of it. I want to hope, trust and have faith in God at all times. If I lose all else I want to keep holding on to that. I want to not be afraid of facing tomorrow. I want to have enough brevity and courage to help me step out of my safety net and comfort zone and tackle the giants in my life. I want to always remember am in better hands (God's) even when I run out of faith or hope.

This morning I realized how easy it is to just focus on the bad and negative and forget the good and positive that once abound. I do not want to forget because holding onto the positive even if it's in the past helps me have faith and hope for a better tomorrow. I don't want to give in at that moment of weakness. In our trials and temptations, which are the situations we find ourselves in on a daily basis, God's strength manifests itself.

So I guess what I am trying to say is remember to count your blessings at your weakest moment (and at all times of course) and see what a huge difference it makes!!! Do not let one negative situation or moment ruin and steal all the joy you have ever experienced and blessings in your life. Every storm passes. Instead turn the ashes in to beauty and let it be like the sun shining in spite of the falling rain and thunder.

Count you blessings. Name them one by one. And it will surprise you what the Lord can do, has done, is doing and will do.


have I hang my head for too long
did i only look at the negative
have i not counted my blessings
did i forget to remember where He has brought me from
have i been ungrateful
was i feisty in my demands
have my requests been self-centered
have i not taken out the time to look back
did i only live in the present
have i only looked and seen the bad
have i forgotten
well then today my recollection has returned
today I have remembered to count only my blessings
today i look and see only the positive
today i pray not for me but you
today am grateful for what I have and have had
today i give thanks for everything He has done
done, is doing and will do.

Doubt

the lights blurred
as I walked
tears streamed my face
i was falling apart
i look out the window
look out to a happy world
behind the window a girl
so lost
in profound misery
I doubt
I doubt so much
it seeps from me into the ground
the thirsty dry ground takes it in
one minute here the next gone
like it never existed only I know it did
i doubt
i douth so much
prisoner to self
hands tightly cling to the bars
standing on tiptoes
take a peek
its all chaos still
shattered
i doubt
I doubt so much
it escapes me
permeating the air
i watch it blend in
as if it never were apart of me
and i feel empty
i doubt
i doubt so much
a girl
scared of the crashing waves
and giants
i doubt
i doubt
i doubt so much

Un Prospero Ano Nuevo 2009

The title translates from spanish to english as "Have a prosperous new year 2009" which is what am wishing all of you

I'm not one to do a post. Period. Let alone an end year one. But again just like the post below one today seems uncharacteristically apropos. This is not a new year's resolution post. I don't do those LOL

08 was a great year for me. Depending on how you look at it.

I hadn't planned on typing up this. But as I do a couple of my guy friends are sprawled on couches playing some PS games and sipping on some heineken. In a few hours we will all suit up and hit some new year's eve party at Hollywood. Red carpet too I might add. Hey, I can brag it's my blog. LOL jk. But seriously I don't get to do posts that often. Not because I can't but because I can't write. Period. My sentence construction sucks. I digress.

I'd like to sit here and complain how bad a year 08 was. But guess what?! I won't because it wasn't. I made it to the last day of the year. And as I sit here am overwhelmed with gratitude by how much God has done for me and how gracious, awesome, loving and merciful He has been. He has protected me and provided for me, la familia and friends.

I've had my downs alright. Hit the bottom and thought that was going to be it. But no it hasn't because right around each corner a light has shone so bright it has thrown me off. Then I've recollected, regrouped and counted my blessings from God. So above all else am grateful to God with all my soul, mind and heart for all He has done. And trust me I can't even come close to saying it all.

Secondly, my moms and siblings. Thank you for been the awesomest family. I love you with all of me and would not trade you for the world.

Thirdly, the bff, you know yourself. Those nights and days. The vacay. Here's to more to come.

My friends Sandra & fam and Suze and la familia. Rita for been such a great friend. Y'all rock and then some. I'd like to name each last one of the angels and friends God has put in my life. But I can't. But you known what the great thing is? God knows each one of you by name. So I'm sending a special prayer up for you tonight for a thousand fold blessings to befall you in the year to come in a few hours or already here depending on your time zone. I love you all.

Thank you so much, God

Christmas at Grams

I'm back to working the night shift and I love it.

This morning I sat in the lounge sipping on a cup of green tea awaiting the am shift to come and take over. Somehow I managed to sit myself right in front of the calendar which in all its glory and magnificence paraded the month of December for me to spectate on. I wasn't a happy spectator to say the least because it had not only been one of those nights at work but also because Christmas ceased to be my best time of the year a while back.

But as I sat there as if to spite me Christmas memories haunted me. And as much as am not one to do a Christmas post. This time one seems uncharacteristically apropos.

Growing up as a kid Christmas was big. I vacillate between the reasons why Christmas was so infamous back then. Besides Jesus been the reason for the season, of course. Not to mention the two new outfits. One for Christmas day and the other for Boxing day (12/26) But also that whatever my siblings and I had wanted and could not get throughout the year now suddenly seemed so easy to coax out of the folks. Now that it was Christmas.

I remember us bringing out the tree from the storage and putting it up along with all the other Christmas decor. As soon as the tree was up and running so was the Christmas music whose crooning filled up every corner of the house and the warmth that escaped the oven from all the baking that went on in the kitchen. It was all merry, good cheer, laughter, giggles and fuzziness. The house phone also seemed to ring off the hook from everyone calling to convey their season greetings. Cards wishing us a Merry Christmas and Happy New Year arrived in the mail from family and friends. During the Christmas season we were also allowed to play outside a while longer than other days.

The week before Christmas my siblings and I would be glued in front of the TV eagerly awaiting the weather forecast session that usually followed after the day's News. So anxious were we to find out if it'd rain on the sacred day or would the gods of nature grace us with sunshine.

We'd leave the city country-bound for Grams house on the eve of Christmas. Grams house was the place to be over Christmas you see. After all, all the cousins would be there and the aunts and uncles as well. Grams had the Christmas feast planned and the festivities would be underway the minute we pulled in. Plenty to eat and drink and a lot of games to play with the cousins made it that much better.

But nothing lasts forever and so our childhood didn't because at some point we grew up. And life got in the way of everyone been available to converge together at Grams on Christmas day. All of a sudden other plans seemed more important and going to Grams took the back seat. Surely, she and grandpa would understand. After all we had been going nonstop and back to back all those years. We'd make a point to go the next year or as soon as things were less hectic we promised. Like that was ever going to happen. As if it wasn't enough to break the Christmas tradition, Grams passed away early this year. I'm certain Christmas will not be the same with her gone. Not like I saw her in the last couple of years but because despite how far away I was during Christmas I always made a point to call. My friends laugh when they scroll my phone book and see I've my Grams and Grandpa's cellphone number.

Still I'll call and wish Grandpa a Merry Christmas. He must be lonely *sigh* but he is a strong man and am sure just like every year for the past 70 plus years he will wake up and go to mass. Oh, grandpa, I love you and pray for God to be your strength and solace

So those are my Christmas memories. What are yours?

Oh yeah this year am working on Christmas day so I'll probably come home, shower, crawl under the covers and sleep away the day. The last time I worked on Christmas day was in 2005 so it should be interesting.

Merry Christmas!!!

Hope. Oh Hope

Hope
what are you?
are you what allows me to cry
or the one who regroups me
Hope
Oh hope was it you
who kept me going the other day
for a better tomorrow
Hope
which one are you
the strength in me
or the holding on
without giving up
Oh hope
was that you the other night
when I could not fall asleep
you held me in your arms through the night
Hope
was it you today
when I was unsure of myself
you stayed with me until the beauty of certainty dawned on me
Oh hope
are you my reminder
when I forget
Hope
which one are you
the courage to face tomorrow
or the triumph that I made it through another day
Oh hope
are you what holds me
when all else falls through
or the one who lets it all fall apart
for it to fall back together
Hope
which one are you
the one I cry to
or the one who wipes my tears
Oh hope
are you the one who reminds me it will turn out right
or the one who makes everything alright
Hope
which one are you
the guardian angel
or the true friend
Oh hope
are you the one who lifts my heart up when am sad
or the one who tells the jokes so I can stay happy
Hope
what are you
the singing
or dancing
or both
Oh hope
are you the one who lit up the skies last night
or the one who shed light upon my path
Hope
which one are you
the prayer answered
or the one kneeling by the bedside in prayer
Oh hope
was it you
you who provided when I was convinced I'd go without
or the one who made a way
Hope
which one are you
the one set of footprints in the sand
that carries me when I cannot walk
or the extra set of footprints
that walks with me all the while
Hope
which one are you
my cry for help
or the help that comes to me
Oh hope
are you what finds me when am lost
or the one who has me wait when I return before I find myself
Hope
which one are you
what are you
are you the one
oh hope
hope

Don't rear your head back

let it go

in this chill and cold

don't rear your head back

and remind me of the warmth we once were

let it go

in this aloneness

don't rear your head back

and remind me of the great company you used to be

in this sadness that is

don't rear your head back

and make me revisit the happiness that once abound

in this joy unspeakable that now is

don't rear your head back

and remind me you used to be a part of it

in this togetherness that am now becoming

don't rear your head back

and threaten it

let it go

let it rest

return not

remind me not

fare thee well

and just let it go

because I will not relive the past

so let it go

GOD

Thank you for caring for me
when I've not cared
Thank you for loving me
when I've not loved me
Thank you for providing
when I've lacked
Thank you for listening
when I've needed an ear
Thank you for carrying me
when I've succumbed under my own weight
Thank you for a shoulder
when I've needed to put my head down
Thank you for wiping my tears
when I've cried
Thank you for lifting the burden
when I've been overwhelmed
Thank you for staying
when I've moved far far away from you
Thank you for forgiving me
when I've fallen
Thank you for your angels
when I've felt alone
Thank you for your protection
when fear has ceased my soul
Thank you for your guidance
for every path I've trod
Thank you for remaining unchanging
when I've been shifty
Thank you for being my friend
when others have disappointed me
Love me, carry me, grace me, mercy me
now and always, God

It used to be you who carried me

I used to cry to you
I used to talk to you
when I trod down a path wrong for me
when I was lost
you found me
when I was down trodden you
lifted me up
when I had not strength you
shared yours
we walked the same path
when I fell behind
you waited for me
like a soldier
if i fell you
fell with me
until I got back on my feet
when I lost my way
you helped me find it
you carried me
and you me
now am alone
it scares me
it defeats my heart
confuses my soul
I ache
but not a soul to listen
or carry me
or share faith and hope
with me
not a soul to pray with me
but me
so i soldier on and carry me
strengthen me
carry me
I carry me
I carry me

All About Me Right NOW!!!

Sometimes I fall it's hard to walk on shifting sand

I'm back to running. I love it. It's so therapeutic to me

I was 19. Seriously do you think you'd have done it any better?

Forgive sounds good. Forgert I don't think I can

Pain's built to last. It's not off the shelf yet

One time my kid sis was so mad at me. Now, I don't even recall what I'd done. But, she looked me in the eye and said "I wish you could just disappear!!"

Now my small sis is the most wonderful person I must have done something horrible

I love her to death

My big sis too. She's everything I strive to be. She's just so noble and modest. And she can throw an outfit together out of nothing.

And me? well me, am just the opposite but am learning. Slowly but surely.

My moms, she's the woman whose heart am after. Oh mommy what would we all be and do without you

My twin brother? the man to all of us. Love him to death to

These are the people that matter most to me. At the end of the day if they are all I've left I'll survive

My stomach hurts. Actually, scratch that it hurts right now. I've good days and then of course bad days. The pain has now been intermittent for two years. Still it's pain and it hurts :(

I'm sick of the hospital and medications. The medications are so hard on my stomach they make it worse

I'm sick of school. lol. Ain't we all? But not the dreamer definitely :)

Thanks for being a great friend to me, Shi. Oh how you make life bearable

I went on a date the other day. My dear moms (bless her soul) thought it was too soon (after the break up, y'knw?)

I felt so silly. I did not know what to wear and what not to. Then when I thought I knew I could not decide what was simple enough for a movie date. I'm just silly like that me :)

He was fun though. And he is tall (I can rock the heels and not worry am hovering over some midget lol jk). He was a real gentleman too :) So me and Shi decided to score him 2pts or was it 3, Shi?

I've not dated for the longest so I'm so lost in all this. And I just might have another date with him coming up this weekend

I'm looking forward to Friday. It's not only GNO and but also we're VIP at our all time fave . I just have to remember not to take the Famotidine that day because can't mix that with alcohol. I need a drink. It's been a painful week this

I joined bible study. So I've something to do every Thursday night. Wednesday is soccer night and now Thursday is bible study night lol wait until my work schedule flips one on me

I love my moms soooooooooooooooooo much. I could not find words for how much

Tomorrow is Thursday. One more day until Friday and then the weekend is with us. Yay!!!

Honest Blogger Award

So, I got awarded "Honest Blogger Award" by the one and only, Kafo at D Unspoken.

And truth be told I was unaware of the existence of such an award and this caught me off guard.

I'm honest in my posts alright, which as you well know are mostly poems and a written post or bullets once every so often. But, I'm honest in a different way, whatever that means. I just don't know how to explain it. I say this because though am honest still I value my privacy and so I try to observe some level of discreetness .

I love reading the comments section. A few of you read through my trying to be discreet and nail it on the head. While some of you are way off. BUT, I greatly appreciate both because it helps me see how different all our perceptions are and teaches me to see things in a different light. Your comments have kept me going many a time and am very appreciative. Some of you have sent me e-mails and those too are greatly appreciated.

Rules are made to be broken, right? Or let me be the part relativist I am and say there's gotta be an exception to every rule and with that am awarding the "Honest Blogger Award" to;

Scotchie, because she (literally) lives in my mind
Supaflyshi , because she gets me
& Pandave, because her posts are just hilariously honest

Again,thank you, Kafo, thanks for the award. I'm honored and flattered.

And the rules are...

1. When you receive the prize you must write a post showing it, together with the name of who has given it to you, and link them back
2. Choose a minimum of 5 blogs that you find brilliant in their content or design.
3. Show their names and links and leave them a comment informing they were prized with an award
4. Show a picture of those who awarded you and those you give the prize (optional).

Notes about Me

• If doing the right thing is right then why does it have to be so hard
• My mind keeps playing tricks on me. The memories are an anguish. And wait who said good memories could save you (The Punisher, the movie) because the goods ones are killing me
• I love walking at night when the streets are quiet and dark. Only slightly lit by every other streetlight on every other block
• I love it when my earphones are deeply sunk in my ears and the blaring volume comforts me
• I'm tired of fighting tears uncried
• The thoughts, they sneak up on me. Unexpected.
• I love my independence
• Please don't only call or write when you want/need something. Because really I'll get back to you because it's just who I am. But I do feel used and isn't that not right?
• I miss my family so much it hurts...hurts so deep
• I miss you, BFF, miss what we once were...the relationship we had that not a soul fathomed...I miss you
• I'm sad it came to this..sad that I can't just pick up my phone and chat, rant and vent because I just can't. It's hard
• You..honestly it's taken you my whole life to get your life together. What's up with that? you tear at this heart that's already torn and how can it break everyday if it's already broken?
• I give the clouds above more than just a passing glance
• When I come close to selling out I want to reconsider
• Yes, Scotchie these are borrowed lyrcis from I hope you dance my Lee Ann Womack
• My head hurts. It's been hurting all week but I did fight the Flu
• I went to NYC last weekend and had a great time!!!
• The child in me loved walking the streets at night and oh the pure thrill of hailing down the cabs (just like in the movies)
• I live for the day I'll travel the world
• I think of you, you know?
• I wish you would leave...all my life and I still don't understand why you've stayed over half a century
• I've cried too much am out of tears
• It's not the darkness that comes it's the light that leaves
• Really?
• I miss my moms..and siblings..talking isn't enough anymore
• How is it I wake up and think this is all a joke that I'll soon snap out of? or a bad dream
• Then I open my sleepy eyes and every last corner is filled with a touch of me or a belonging of mine
• Oh, I don't like it anymore here
• Mommy ***sobs***
• I love hot showers after a long day at work
• All my 12 patients last night were awesome
• I gotta have green tea
• Honey (for my green tea) counts as a 'basic' for me
• I could live on a cold bowl of ceral
• I put my ceral in the fridge to make it crunchier and more crisp
• I sleep with my stereo on

Forgive and Forget

Today I choose to forgive you
and forget
forget?
how well will I do
how quick will I forget
I choose to forgive and forget all the wrong I did you
all the wrong you did me
I choose to forgive and forget the pain and hurt I caused you
and you caused me
I forgive and forget the words said that cannot be taken back
to and by both of us
I choose to go first as a sign of humility
far be it from me that I should think am better than you
or than anyone for that matter
I seek forgiveness from God too
I pray He make both you and me
better people
we're both still so young
still with all our lives in front of us
I pray you only the very best in all your endeavors
and should fate see to it that our paths cross again in this life
I hope we'll both go about it with some decency and dignity
Yes, I truly, sincerely forgive you with all of me
Fare thee well

Meme

I got tagged by Mona, so here goes...

1. What’s worse - Physical or Mental cheating?
both


2. Is it easier to forgive or forget?
forgive


3. Can men and women be ” Just Friends?”
definitely. am all philosophical and a big believer of platonic relationships coined from the Greek philospher'a name, Plato



4. Dating co-workers?
no



5. All expenses paid vacation to anywhere?
Greece


6. On the way to the electric chair - What’s your last meal?
A platter of e'rything seafood




7. Water parks are…?
great when you bring an extra change of clothes..gotta love them, though



8. When you are “In Love” do you notice other people?
In love? what's that?lol. Yes, I notice other people all the time



9. Is flirting cheating?
yes

10. Would you rather have 1 great friend or 5 pals?
1 great friend


11. If someone called you a bitch would you be offended?
Why, no!! Babe in total control here (there) tsk tsk


12. Are you ok with your significant other being friends with an ex?
By all means


13. Would you live with someone without marrying them?
once bitten, twice shy


14. Favorite sport?
Frisbee at the beach

15. Is toilet paper hung over or under?
over

16. Do you squeeze toothpaste from the middle or end of the tube?
End


17. How do you feel about tanning booths?
The same way, Pink does in her song


18. Friends with benefits?
No, thanks


19. Do you believe in angels?
Yes


20. Would you rather take pictures or be in pictures?
Take them!


21. Have you ever flirted with someone you had no interest in?
Yes


22. Ever kissed a random person and then walked away?
Gracious, no


23. Would you buy bootleg merchandise?
Yes


24. What color looks best on you?
Black


25. If you could play any sport professionally what would it be?
Tennis


26. Ever break up with someone and regret it?
No


27. Are you a jealous person?
No, a free spirit


28. Would you ever have plastic surgery?
No


29. When do you want to get married?
That's not in the plans anywhere yet


30. Who has the sexiest accents?
My goodness...I'd have to kill you, if I told you


31. Next concert you’re attending?
Uh-mmh...none

32. Favorite song?
I don't have one in particular but I like a couple


33. Favorite movie?-
I'm at pains to pick just one


34. What’s your occupation?
Nurse

35. What’s your sign?
Scorpio


36. Are you a beach, country or city person
A cross between beach and city


37. Best vacation spot you’ve been to?
Tsavo West

38. Have you ever had a “secret affair?”
No


39. If you could own a non-traditional pet which would it be?
What?!


40. Favorite show as a child?
Tom & Jerry


41. Where do you spend most of your money?
Shoes-Steve Madden


42. Are you currently working at a job that you hate?
No, not really


43. Have you ever been so heart broken that you called in sick to work?
Are you kidding me? of course, not!

44. Favorite summer drink?
Cocktails + water


45. Can you change a car tire?
Yes. I'm that self-sufficient.


46. Favorite cologne / perfume?
Miracle-Lancome


48. Would you consider yourself adventurous?
Yes


49. What is your My Space profile song?
Gee, thanks for reminding me I actually have a myspace a/c. They must have closed it down by now...no really, they have to


50. Favorite concert attended?
Have I been to a concert?


51. Would you date an already attached man / woman?
No


52. Would you sing Karaoke in front of co-workers?
Oh my goodness, yes! Nursing school was the best. After Wednesday night clinicals @ 11pm we'd all walk in to this Karaoke bar by the hospital fully clad in our smurf blue uni scrubs, not giving a rat's ass and just sing our tired tushes away...and the next day at 630am we'd show up at clinicals all red-eyed and tired as hell. Gotta love nursing school, dude!!!


53. Can you shoot pool?
Wait, can I shoot pool? I've to be the biggest amateur there is the art of shooting pool


54. Do you like your siblings’ significant others?
I don't have any


55. Can you drive a stick?
I can overturn a stick wheels up and all, that much I know. Ok, so may be I can but my heart stops beating, literally. Oh ask my twin, while my heart comes to a halt, he just keels over and dies of laughter


56. Did you wear white at your wedding?
What wedding? oh that wedding...no...just a pretty little black dress


57. Have you ever sat and hoped for a phone call?
Yes...from my moms and after a job interview and oh in the recent years after my G.I appointments


58. Ever skip school and spend the day at the beach?
Wow! thanks for the idea...only thing is it's a bit too late for me to get a bunch of my nursing classmates to ditch class and hit the beach


59. Favorite TV show/s?
Army Wives and How I met your mother (HIMYM). You're missing out if you don't watch this two shows

60. What do you think about gay marriage?
I'm not for it. That is just me.

61. what are you waiting for at the movies?
The Women. I even have a reminder set on my cellie's calendar. Dude I love, love the movies

62. What is your favorite holiday?
Christmas with la familia

63. Describe your fighting style: drunken master or angry monkey?
angry monkey (whatever that means). I don't do drunken

64. Piercing?
4

65. Tattoos?
1. left shoulder blade

66. Which store would you choose to max out your credit card?
steve-madden, Endless.com. Shoes, shoes and then more shoes and some

67. Thongs?
yes

68. Write 2 truths and 1 lie
-I strive to live for God everyday
-I love my moms and siblings to bits and pieces
-I love school

I'm tagging Scotchie, Pandave, Supaflyshi, Gish, Nahjaj, 3TOC and anyone else not tagged please be my guest and do the tag

It is well with my soil

When peace, like a river, attendeth my way,

When sorrows like sea billows roll;

Whatever my lot, Thou has taught me to say,

It is well, it is well, with my soul.

It is well, with my soul,

It is well, with my soul,

It is well, it is well, with my soul.

Though Satan should buffet, though trials should come,

Let this blessed assurance control,

That Christ has regarded my helpless estate,

And hath shed His own blood for my soul.

It is well, with my soul,

It is well, with my soul,

It is well, it is well, with my soul.

My sin, oh, the bliss of this glorious thought!

My sin, not in part but the whole,

Is nailed to the cross, and I bear it no more,

Praise the Lord, praise the Lord, O my soul!

It is well, with my soul,

It is well, with my soul,

It is well, it is well, with my soul.

And Lord, haste the day when my faith shall be sight,

The clouds be rolled back as a scroll;

The trump shall resound, and the Lord shall descend,

Even so, it is well with my soul.

It is well, with my soul,

It is well, with my soul,

It is well, it is well, with my soul.

It's My Moms Birthday

Happy Birthday, Moms!

May God's best blessings find you. May God bless you in your going out and coming in. May He guide and make the footsteps of your path straight. May His light shine on you always. May you live to fulfil all of your hopes and dreams.

We love you to pieces!!!