Thirty-One Things

1. I'm sitting on a bed, legs crossed, sipping on a glass of red
2. The summer is fading away. The leaves are changing color
3. The breeze coming in from the open window behind me gently caresses my skin
4. I officially did my first Fall hike this morning. I set out bright and early to brave the trail just before the sun started scorching
5. Its been a beautiful summer, full of lessons, love, laughter and heart stopping tears
6. I've gone through some significant, life changing experiences for the last six months
7. Oh Pandave, I'm happy to announce I'm the proud bearer of a few new scars
8. I find scars to be refreshing, they tell tales
9. Silently, discreetly, sometimes invisibly
10. Some scars are evident to the natural eye
11. Others only to the soul
12. I've traveled quite a bit this summer
13. I had the pleasure of visiting a dear friend, Rita. Our intentions were to sit at a streetside table and have lunch. But the sun and humidity forced us to sit inside in a cozy booth. 
14. Our lunch was full of candid conversations from the heart
15. A quick shopping spree, if you will, and a cup of coffee hours later
16. Yet our parting was a tear jerker
17. I've enjoyed a few good reads this past months
18. Nothing beats that curiosity that accompanies tearing through pages
19. Fall is my absolute favorite season
20. I have pairs of boots lined up in my closet and scarves begging to be wrapped around my neck. Yet my neck of the woods won't cool down fast enough
21. Regardless of where you go, what you do, whom you become, no one beats or even comes close to family or at least my family HAHA
22. A God-sent S.O. is a close second. Falafel with steak @130am. I think I chose a winner :)
23. I'm nothing without God. And everything with God
24. Regardless of a very scary, heart wrenching six months full of uncertainty with joy my heart can say that never once has God left me on my own or let me walk alone. HE has been so exceedingly abundantly faithful it blows me AWAY!!!
25. One day while lying on a procedure table, weeping like a baby, I found out the divine meaning of unfathomable peace
26. Even if my loved ones were waiting JUST outside the door, they couldn't be allowed into the procedure room, they couldn't be there to hold my hand or wipe my tears
27. Despite all their love and prayers, in that very moment I realized only God was/is omnipresent. And I was overcome by an overwhelming sense of peace
28. And my life hasn't been the same since
29. No matter how long we resist it, there comes a point when you just gotta let flaky friends go
30. Life is beautiful. Enjoy it. One day at a time.To the very fullest and with whatever you have. Don't wait for tomorrow
31. Nothing beats a well orchestrated GNO. I can't decide if it's the silliness of laughing at nothing and everything, or sitting quietly in reflection, sharing five rolls of spicy sushi, watching a comedy show together or even just the spontaneity of it all

To my sisters and our only brother

I woke to an e-mail from my twin brother this morning. He is the most amazing man/guy I know. I have two sisters too. I love my sisters and brother with my everything...my all...the poem below says a tad of the emotion called love I have and feel for them...


I'm happy for my two sisters and only brother
as we've grown up, we've taken care of each other
stuck up for each other
wanted only what is best for each other
I pray we'll always be a part of each other's lives,
always love each other,
because that's what siblings are
so, siblings, this is for you

There's a link between us
that will never break,
Even though it's been stretched
a time or two-or even more
we've been through
so much together;
we've got so much in common

I'll never stop caring about you,
worrying about you,
wanting only the very best for you,
that can never change.
because that's what love's all about
that's what a sister's for

Just so you know,
I carry your hearts with me(I carry them in my heart)
I'm never without them(nowhere I go am I without them)
anywhere I go you go, my beloved sisters and brother;and whatever thing
is done by only me is your doing my darlings

I fear no fate(for you my sweets,are my fate)
I want no world(for you beautifuls, are my one true world)
and it's you who are my everything
and whatever always means the most and best to me
you are

So,
Here is the darkest secret, no soul else knows
(here is the root of all roots, song of all songs
and love of all loves called A LIFE WITH YOU,
which grows higher than the soul hopes or mind thinks)
and it's no wonder you're the stars set apart
the best, bright and shining

So you just know,
I carry your hearts(I carry them in my heart)
always!